I am pretty religious. I don't go to church as often as I should. I don't. But I do pray. Daily. I pray to St Gerard, St Catherine and St Ann. I pray hard and I ask them and god for a blessing. I try to believe he will answer my prayers. Some days it's so hard to remain faithful. I do the best I can and I know I should not let my faith in whatever he has in store for me, falter.
I never stopped to look at it the way you just described to me. Satan is very powerful and I tend to forget that. I never thought it could be his voice trying to weaken my faith. How quick we are to blame ourselves. I have blamed myself at least 10,000 times over the past 2 years. It's always my fault. I should have done this, I shouldnt have done that, I could have. I never stopped to say "shut up, Satan" I blame me.
I don't think you are crazy. I think you are very kind and sweet to point this out to me.
I believe in things happening for a reason. I believe there is a reason I found this board and met you and the other ladies on here. You have all given me so much hope. I can't really imagine without this board how I would be feeling right now. I wouldn't be getting IVF from the other RE because his prices were through the roof, even with our insurance. It gives me the chills. In so many ways, this board has saved my hope and my outlook on this- place. I don't feel as lonely, I don't feel as filled with despair.
God Bless you, and thank you for taking the time to write this to me. If that voice is satan then you are an angel and I really appreciate the reminder. I will try to shut out Satans voice. Thank you for this. Not to be corny, but your post was a gift to me.