Thanks for being my cheerleading team! It is truly soooooo much easier to go through this with all of you than completely, totally alone.

xo

I meant "TO each of you"!

Must be that second glass of wine I had...!

Thanks for answering my question below. I understand it a bit better now. I hope you are doing ok and having a nice weekend. Keep us posted on how you are.

xoxoxo, Tracy

I am so focused on "what forbidden food can I have next?" that it really does take my mind off things!

What is your update? I've been off the boards for a while so I haven't caught what you're up to.

xo

I actually got an iced tea lemonade yesterday. I'm trying to be caffeine free, but a cheat every now and then is nice. I'm in a Femara/Injectible cycle. I posted below that I was concerned that my E2 is lower than it normally is at this point in my cycle. I did do estrace in the luteal phase, so that could have suppressed me a bit. I'm trying to be zen. I go back on Tuesday to see where I'm at. Yesterday (CD 9) I had one on the Right that was almost 10mm and 3 that were between 5 and 9mm. on the left were 2 less than 5mm that the u/s tech thinks won't come up. I love when they are chatty with me. She thought the ones on the right all looked like contenders. Enjoy your coffee and your Sunday.

xoxoxo, Tracy

4 possible contenders! That's really good. Who needs the ones on the left, anyway?

I enjoyed my coffee so much that I'm having another cup.

You'll love this - my DH said to me "You've been so fun this weekend!" He didn't mean it like I'm not usually fun, but rather that because my diet isn't restricting us so much, we were able to go out and do lots of really fun things (usually involving a beer or some other forbidden fruit!). I really feel like I am on vacation right now, and it's doing very good things to my head.

Grow those follies on the right! Thanks for the update.

I'm soo sorry.. I read your post below.. I've been trying not to read posts anymore at work.
I can NOT imagine what you are going through right now.. and no it's ABSOLUTELY not fair... I ask myself the question all the time.
I have my DH's cousin who absolutely knows my struggle with IF and is PG w/ her 2nd child.. can you beleive she actually emails me how she needs to get new underwear b/c her body is already changing soo much?? and how she has all these food adversions..? She KNOWS everything about my IF journey and she' just LOVES attention- no matter what it's about. Of course DH says she's just "chatting" but I know she is just trying to push my buttons...
Anyway- I've never been in your position... but My heart breaks for you right now...

Cheryl
37 in March
DH 37 in March
Highest known FSH #18 July 06
#1 Natural 6mos TTC with DD 2003
4 failed Clomid IUI cycles
GonalF Feb 07/IUI/BFN
GonaF Aug 07/ IUI BFN
GonalF Nov 07/ IUI BFN
Endo Surgery 1/08
Femara Feb 08 IUI/ BFN
Femara May 08 TBD!!!!!!!!!!
TTC #2 for over 3 years

DH's cousin suuuuuucks! It's hard to believe someone could be so insensitive, particularly someone related to you! Ugh. And no, you're right, she's not just chatting. I don't think I could respond to any of her emails.

I have actually started telling people that "I only want one kid" when they ask me if I am going to have another (I have a DD). I can't believe people think it's ok to ask that kind of question. Then, of course, they say things like, "you don't want her to be a only child, do you?" Nice.

I know.. I get that all the time.. I have a 4yr old DD as well.
She tricked her husband into getting PG w/ the first one ( DH's cousin) and now as soon as she saw that I had to shoot myself w/ needles for IUI, she decided to try and got PG... I want to just GO OFF on her... but that would absolutely give her satisfaction... so I pretend it doesn't bother me.. I dont' want to let her know how she gets to me.. but I will I'm sure b/c I'm not one to keep my mouth shut at all... DH said not to read her emails or block her.. but she will actually look to see if you read them or not!!

Cheryl
37 in March
DH 37 in March
Highest known FSH #18 July 06
#1 Natural 6mos TTC with DD 2003
4 failed Clomid IUI cycles
GonalF Feb 07/IUI/BFN
GonaF Aug 07/ IUI BFN
GonalF Nov 07/ IUI BFN
Endo Surgery 1/08
Femara Feb 08 IUI/ BFN
Femara May 08 TBD!!!!!!!!!!
TTC #2 for over 3 years

Hi there,
Your cousin sounds awful. If it was me I wouldn't read her emails because she needs an audience to be mean, and if she really is just chatting maybe she will get that this is sensitive for you. If she asks why you don't read them I would just say I've been too busy. One thing I am learning from IF (I can't believe I have learnt anything positive) is that I feel able to do what is right for me without having to give long explanations justifying my behaivour - if I can't do something now because its too hard - ie a friend's 2 years old party with all those mums and babies - i just don't go and don't even feel guilty anymore.

Anyway she sounds horrid and good on you for not giving her the response she wants.
Jane