Hey saraq, how r things going on with schoolcraft . How many follies/ I have a phone consult with him in 2 weeks. Should I go with him? I am also going NY to see check and Davis . It's like I have ADD.

Hey Anna,

Thanks for asking. I was hoping to have good news to report to you today, but sadly, I don't.

The cycle went pretty well. We had 8 eggs and 7 of them fertilized. This was the most we'd ever had. They strongly urged us to go to blast and do CCS. But today is officially day 6 and sure enough, the lab called us this morning to let us know that all of the embryos (except maybe one) arrested. The one that has yet arrested is really behind. So we are very sad - devastated really.

I think this might be the end of the road with my eggs. There's obviously an egg quality problem along with DOR. And at this point I just want a baby.

Oh, gush i am soo sorry. but dont loose hope maybe this one embryo make it to transfer. How much did CCRM cost you? Do you mind if I ask you what was the highest egg retrieved you had besides this time. I mean did Schoolcraft did some magic and got twice the eggs?

Dont beat up yourself. Please dont. we are all in this stinking boat together.


Ment----.

I am also almost ready to do DE, my AFC is 2 and only one grows no matter what they do. But DH isnt ready yet. We are going to NY and have consult with Check at oct 31th and Davis at Nov 2nd. i feel like i am waiting my money. honestly its to be honest with ourselves. we see one or two out of 100 POFers get pg and we assume that its going to be us. IDK what to say thank G-d there is a DE option at the end of the road. hard to accept but you know what i tell to myself who cares I cant fight G-d's decision. I am also so down these days my last IVF after 15 F**in day of stim got canceled due to drop at E2. I had one follicle so its not like I lost a big opportunity. msg me if you need to vent. all i can say is my view to universe has changed. we just need to accept that our lives is more challenging than other people. As I type this I am exploding inside.

I know you must be so upset, I just can't image. I am so sorry and so upset for you.
I am sending you all the hugs and love I can.

I will still keep hopes for your last embie.

I know for me and my DH just knowing we have another path to parenthood and that our ultimate goal is to be parents and that there are many ways to get there keeps us sane. I am glad you are open to other ideas. When you are ready I'd love to chat about that, I think a number of us are ready to try soemthing new. For some of us it's donor egg, for some donor embryo, for some adoption. But, the end goal is the same, no matter the path!

Again, I am so sorry and I am hoping against hope that something changes...

Great love to you,
Sara H

If I were you I might be tempted to find a clinic that will transfer at d3. Honestly I always had the worst looking embies and I don't think there was any way they would go to blast in a dish. But one did stick (day 3), I was really shocked. So I think there is a possibility that some people's embies just don't do well in a dish. I don't want to give you false hope but I'm not sure the docs know enough about this yet. In any case, I would just prefer transferring because at least there's a fighting shot, and you can feel more peace if it doesn't work. There was one cycle when I had 2 2-cells and I didn't transfer them. I really regretted it even though I'm sure they would not have turned into a baby. GL

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