Thanks for the message and the good advice - I've been "wine-free" for about 2 weeks, so I'm going to drink up...
Wine, chocolate and fresh cherries after BBQ chicken and corn on the cob off the grill I just bought DH to assuage our pain a bit. (Who says retail/food therapy is not effective?!)
Unfortunately though, I don't think my local RE is all that interested in learning anything about my cycles anymore.....which really makes me sad. They didn't even call me to tell me about the negative beta - they sent me an email, which is a first. I guess after 2+ years even the nurses probably get a little depressed about the situation.....I sometimes imagine them drawing straws to see who has to call me.
Even if the RE was interested in learning something from this cycle, I'm not sure there's much to learn honestly. Lining looked good, follies were there, P4 was high with support after ovulation. (But of course who knows whether egg and sperm even met, this being TI.)
We have learned a over the course of the year, for sure though. They found endo, removed a septum, kept monitoring my DOR (which is definitely getting worse but not exponentially) - AMH measured about 0.7 last year (but 0.24 2 years ago, which is weird), FSH is low, and my AFC has been a steady 6 for 6 months. Immune issues are still a problem, but are now at least being treated. A specialist looked into DH's anti-sperm antibodies and doesn't think they should prevent fertilization. I honestly can't imagine there's anything else to find.
Maybe Coo.per will be able to help us with a low stim IVF in the next couple of months. I'm somewhat excited about the possibility of something new, but also scared about being an OOT patient with them. I haven't had the best experience trying to coordinate with the nurses so far....but we'll see. Sometimes great things happen when we don't expect them.
Sorry if this post sounds down. (I just reread it...and wow, I'm a ray of sunshine!) LOL. Oh well, wine and chocolate, wine and chocolate.
Thank you again and take care,