That's pretty much the way it goes. Some people take it too personally. Those are the ones that don't last long in EMS. With most critical calls, you can always find something (later on) that you could have done better. That is where the CQI (continuous quality improvement) process comes in. Not too many fatal calls get me down, as most of ours are older people with multiple health problems (most we've been on before). There's not much you can do when the body decides to stop working.