I trotted Rainfall around the arena, he seemed to float. "So this is why Mindy always made it look easy, you're a smoothe ride," I praised. he snorted. I slowed him to a walk and then collecting him i picked up a canter, he was a dream!
After I had Rainfall cooled out i walked home with elmer. I stopped by a coffee shop and grabbed an esspresso, walking home. "Elmer remember how i used to wonder what Heaven was like?" I said to him he barked excitedly. "This is how i dreamed it'd be," I said gently. "Only my parents would be here waiting for me,"I sighed. "I'm home!" I yelled. My guardian angel who i had taken to calling mom greeted me. She smiled "How was the horses?" She smiled. "uh, they were good." i sighed. "did you go play softball?" "No, I just rode, and stopped in at the coffee shop and bought an esspresso," I said showing the togo cup to her. She nodded. "Well i want you to see something," she said. I followed her up the the stairs into my bedroom. "I got this for, it's a viewing glass," She said. I stared into it. "That's the hospital room" I said. She nodded. "look Elmer, that's the dog i was telling you about! that's Lillian!" I smiled. She wasn't sleeping, she was pawing at my face and barking. "She doesn't know I am dead yet does she?"I sighed. Mom didn't understand it either. Just as mom hit the call button the docotrs entered and threw her and Lillian out. suddenly I felt sick, "I'm dead," I whispered. I flt her warm hand on my shoulder. "Not technically" she whispered. "What?!" I said. "They think you're in a coma.' "that doesn't make sense" I said grumpily. It was all so confusing. "Sammy sit down" The angel said. I sat on the bed. "While you were gone today, I had a visit from God," she said. "Really?" I felt myself get very excited. she nodded. "He doesn't think you are prepared for death. He thinks maybe he can change your fate, if you want to suffer for few months longer. I don't think it's fair, but God suggests that we give you a choice, you can watch this, right now you're in apretty dead coma" she kissed my head. "SO i have a choice? Between a slow and painful cure or a quick, painless death?" I asked she nodded. "How long do i have?" "As long as you need," she whispered hoarsely and left my room. Cinderlla and Elmer stared at me, i knew they both wanted me to stay here. I looked into the viewing glass, Dad was there now, so was Josh, Abby and the twins. Jason, hadn't gotten there yet. All of them were staring at me not sure of what to do. I pushed the glass away from mee and went down the stairs. I sat down at the dinner table and ate supper and then took the dogs for a walk.
Everything about Heaven was peaceful, nobody seemed like a stranger, It was exactly what I wanted it to be, I could float everywhere and when I wasn't wearing softball clothes or barn clothes, i had a beautiful white gown. It shimmered irodescent sequins. I gently touched my braids. I would miss my hair so much, if i went home. I was in so much pain at home, i wanted to die so much when i was down there. Up here though I wanted to be home and fight even harder for my life so i could maybe ride again. I wanted to spend Christmas with my mom and dad. I had already missed Thanksgiving. I missed my horse, my friends, my family.
When i got home I took a shower and brushed out my long hair, it was the same, blonde straight thick hair i'd always had. I had my same old blue eyes, and freckles that never spread further than my nose, and the tops of my cheeks. I smiled at myself, same perfect teeth that had never had braces. I had my dogs, i had a perfectly good guardian angel and a horse to ride.
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