I stepped out and onto the familar ground, i'd left the kids and the horses in Greece. I needed to find this out for myself, what was going on?
I walked into the barn and walked over to Noel's stall. "hey sweets, how are you holding up?"I murmered. Noel walked over stiffly and shoved her face into my gut. The poor thing had lost her mother, and now her foster mother was gone, the horse i had learned to ride on was gone, my mom's faithful compainion for 20 years was gone. I could only hope Pasty had gone to a peaceful place, and would be happy there. I missed her, i missed Rainfall; where was Bryan?
I walked into the house and yelled for him, no answer. I saw there was a message left on the machine. I played it "Hey Mindles, it's me...look it's not what you think, i'm at the hospital, i'm sorry i couldn't explain...i love you" there was a click. I turned the machine off. The house was eerily quiet, no dogs barking, no children crying, the silence was a heavy burden that weighed down upon my chest. I walked outside, the grass was greening and growing. Birds fluttered to and from the trees. The swings on the childrens swing set rocked as if a ghost was sitting, waiting for them to return. A wave a guilt possesed me. Was I doing the right thing? Taking Sean away from the world he knew, just to fulfill a childhood dream? Was it fair for Bryan to suddenly drop everything just for me? Was i thinking of my family or just of myself? I rubbed my temples.
The white wash of the hospital gave me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, it was as though i knew something was terribly wrong and i didn't want to face it. Facing it would mean losing something and right now i knew it'd be a dream, and i knew that dream would have to be mine. I turned to engine off and gave a long sigh. "Just go, it won't kill you now" I thought. I opened the door. and stepped outside and walked to the front desk. "Bryan Smith?" i muttered. "Oh are you his wife?" I nodded feverently. "room 23A it's down the hall and the last one of the right" "Uh thanks...can you tell me what's wrong with him?" i asked. "Car accident" She looked at me with a questioning look of sympathy. I nodded and walked down the hall.
"Hey Bry" I said pulling a chair close to the bed. He looked at me. "Hey, where are the kids?" I left then with Alexandra" I said. "ooh" He said quietly. "It would have been too expensive" I said. He took my hand and touched it with his lips. "How'd this happen?" "blind spot, paralyzed from the waist down, don't worry though, we'll get to the olympics" he smiled. Inodded absently. What now?
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