"What about the horses? Jase, what are we going to do?"
"Ash, I know going to the funeral means alot to you, but you have to be realistic. Its just not possible for us to go all the way to England right now."
"We can get someone to watch the horses. ITs bad enoug I didnt say goodbye to him. I feel like its all my fault. I have to go, I have to." I started to cry. I knew it would be hard to go. I sure would worry about Noel an awful lot. And I knew Jason wouldnt leave her. Plus who would take care of the other horse? we buried Ashes this morning. I was trying not to think about it too much. Plus I wanted to get away from here. No one overe there really knows me, other then Moss's friends. No press, no anything.
"Jason, I'll go then. Even if I obly stay for a day. I have to go. Thats all there is to it."
"Oh, so your just gonna up and leave? Are you coming back? Do you even care? You would just leave me like this? with all of this?"
"Why are you making me look the bad guy? We arent just talking about some joy trip, like our honeymoon! This is for a fricken funeral Jason! Why wouldnt I come back? what do you not want me to? I can bring the horses to my aunts farm, she watched them before. Itll be more peaveful over there anyway. I dont need you for everything! You could come if you wanted to! And yea i feel bad about Noel, but I cant do everything or be everywhere!!"
"FINE! Go. Take Chrissy with you if you want. I'll be down at the hospital with Noel. I"ll call a cab."
Jason wheeled himself around and sped out the door. I guess that was that. I was so furious, but devestatd at the same time. I hopped on the phone and explained things to my aunt for a few hours. She brought her 6 horse trailor over and helped me haul my horses over. I booked tickets for Chrissy and I. We packed quickly and I was going to go over and say something to Jason, but i didn. I just left. Id call him later.

Jason dropped out of his chair and whispered words into my ears. I didn't really understand anything but i nickered despite the facts. He smiled and layed down beside me. "You're so beautiful shrimp, I never got the chance to tell you that" He smiled. I knew he was talking about his sister, i knew he was comforted when he talked about her, and quietly i listened just happy to know something familiar for once. "I don't know, It's like she can't ever be settled with herself, she always wants to be doing something. Maybe it was just that i always admired how Sammy let life just come, and Ash always goes in search of it. It 's like she's totally forgotten that she's carrying our children, because nothing matters but some dude i hardly know all the way over in England and his funeral, and here i am in her apartment in a wheelchair" He was choking on tears. I lifted my head and nosed him, "don't cry Jason" I murmered. He kissed my nose. "You're so wonderful Noel, you don't care about yourself at all, you love people with the purest heart." he scratched my neck i leaned into it because it felt so wonderful.

Later the doctor came and made me get up. It's harder to find your balance on three legs. She helped me walk to the feed bucket, Jason watched from a corner. I focused on him while i ate. "Jason, i think she's going to be a miracle" the vet patted my back. "won't ever ride though" He murmered. "No, but that's alright." He nodded. I felt the warm hands leave my rear and relized that i was standing on my own, I turned and looked at the two humans with sheer delight, i let out a small whinny, Jason laughed. I pranced around and then relized how much energy that took and turned to sip my water and then nosed around the hay and the collapsed into it. Jason smiled. i watched him out of my good eye, "Well, I better go" He whispered. "With my luck Ashley's probably left." The vet hugged Jason. "I'll trailor this little beauty over tomorrow.