I hadnt talked to Jason in about 2 weeks. I was beginning to wonder what that meant about us. I was scared and worried. Never before had my life been so messed up. Ididnt know what to do. Not to mention the fact that he was the father of the twins growing inside of me. Chrissy was at a 4H camp for the week. timing coukdnt have been better. After robotically going through my daily chores,i hopped in the car and drove over to my future in-laws house...I hoped anyway. I knocked on the door and could hear people talking. Simon peeked through the window, and it was still another few minutes before anyone answered the door. i was starting to think they didnt want anyhting to do with me. I wasnt sure why though. "ashley, come in." Jason's mom said warmly. "thanks. Have you heard from Jason?" i asked getting down to the point. There was an awkward silence. "er, no, well not really anyway." His dad replied. I wasnt sure what to say next. Obviously Jason had been ehre, and why wouldnt he of? I heard the stairs creak and everyone turned their heads around aburptly. i saw Simon run upstairs. "well Im sorry we cant be of more help. we will call you if he turns up." jason's mom said and ushered me out the door. i sat on the porch and cried. What else was there to do? Was Jason happy? Did he consider us over? I cried some more, and could feel somone watching me, yet no one came outside. I got back into the car and drove. Just drove through the countryside, and tried to relax. I finally ended up at Evergreen. I left a note on the door of our apartment.
Jason,
If you ever bother coming back call me on my cell phone. Im going....where i dont know. And i dont know when I'll be back. But Im leaving, just driving. I will arrange someone to care for the horses, if i am gone over night(s)...but I can tell you were here and fed Noel. There was a mess by her stall, and you left your watch in the tack room. we need to talk. Remembr the kids...remember me? I love you
And I left
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