I can't sleep tonight because my daughter and I have a counselling session tomorrow and I know it is going to be a bad one because we have had a bad week, so here I sit at 2:30am writing this post. I was laying in bed listening to Jimmy to help me wind down from the day like I do every night, when I realised Jimmy's music has been there in every aspect of my life, for as long as I can remember. My dad was a huge Cold Chisel fan, so I always had grown up with Chisel music since I was a baby. Then Jimmy went solo at the same time as I was at an age to really take an interest in music. So my love of Jimmy's music just grew from there. I realised that Jimmy's music has helped me escape from so many dark and difficult times in my life. Of course Jimmy's music has been huge part of the happiest times in my life as well. Little Darling came out around the time when my daughter was born, and I instantly dedicated that song to her. Tonight as I listen to it, it breaks my heart, to realise how detatched we are from each other now. I was only a kid when I had my daughter, I was 16 when she was born so I had to grow up pretty quickly. I just feel like my is being ripped out. As much as I love my daughter, every day I seem to distance myself a little bit further away from her, so she can't hurt me anymore.
I can remember back when my parents' marriage started to go south and I would hide in my room and drown out their arguing by playing my Bodyswerve and Working Class man tapes as loud as I could. When my parents eventually broke up and I felt like my life was over, I retreated into Jimmy's music again. It was the only thing that got me through for a long time. And tonight as I sit her and try to clear my head of the crap my daughter have been through and are going through, I realise that Jimmy's music has been my therapist for all these years.
For all of the years I have loved Jimmy and followed his career, I have never got the chance to see him live until his latest tour. I was so flawed by the 2 concerts I went to I am now travelling to Victoria in November to see him again. AS excited as as I am to finally be achieving a life long dream of seeing Jimmy play a live concert, I feel like I am going mad, because I am obsessing over it. I have 3 kids and I love them all to death (I have 2 younger sons as well as my daughter) but I really like that all that is getting me through right now and keeping me sane is my trip to Victoria. I feel horrible in so many ways because I am giving up a family holiday at Xmas to follow my dream, but I feel like I just have to do it for myself. I am 34 years old and this will be the first time since I am became a mother (18 long years ago) that I have done something just for me.
I want to ask you guys Am i crazy? Am I crazy to cling to Jimmy's music as my only saving grace?
I am sorry for lumping all my crap on everyone here, I just really needed to vent and I thought if anyone was going to understand, it would be you guys, fellow die hard Jimmy fans.
If you want to run to the nearest phone and have me committed I totally understand, and don't blame you at all. But I was really hoping that some of you might be able to share similar experiences so I don't feel like I am totally going around the bend.
I am really sorry for pouring my heart out like this, and if you want to petition to have me banned from the site and put in the loony bin I totally understand.
Thankyou so much for listening, it reallt does mean alot.
Cheers
Nicky

Nicky,

Its great to hear peoples stories, so don’t apologize for any of it.

I’m sure people here relate to it , much more then you think ..
Everyone can vent whatever they like , some good, some bad .

The disgusting or obscene would be removed . It just a jimmy forum , and all who read it understand, or have been in similar or exactly the same place. Jimmy no doubt loves how his music reach’s and means so much to fans. He profess’s a lot of what he writes is related in his life too. This forum had many a fan do what you did, and many of us still here , over the years have already voiced an emotion to our own lives.
Good on you for doing something for yourself too. We’ve all been there too !!! Ha ha..

Hope the mediation with your daughter went well.

Cheers Rob

P.S ..As for the loony part, were all a bit MAD...
I used this handle "barnes mad", 'cause thats what they used to call say about me over 20 years ago, drag mates etc to gigs every time Chisel or Jimmy was in town, or just choice of music in cars, pubs, sporting clubs.....Speaking of sport, when I was playing cricket, and they thought I was bowling like an old woman, I'd hear shouts of C'mon BARNESEEEEEEEEE, that fired me up a bit, usually a bouncer was the next delivery .

Like I said its great to hear stories , so go for it Nicky.

Cheers again

Nicky,

What a beautiful, heartfelt message. Rest assured, you are NOT crazy! No men in white coats will be coming to take you away! I feel that Jimmy's music would have helped many, many people through some tough times. I once was having some tests done in hospital and as I was being taken to the room, I remember singing (to myself of course. Do you think I'm mad enough to have sung out loud?! Lol) from Choir Girl "one nurse to hold her, one nurse to wheel her down the corridor of healing" and it sure did help. Of course, I always sing Jimmy songs when I go to the dentist, helps with that too!! Do hope things went well with your daughter Nicky.

Lots of love to you,
Angel.
xoxo

Hi guys!

I just wanted to say thankyou so much to Rob and Angel for your replies. They really mean alot. Also to Razzie who emailed me on Wednesday, thankyou so much.

It is so good to talk to people who understand where I am coming from. Jimmy is just so awesome. It is so cool to see how much he has affected and enriched so many people's lives.

My daughter and I made some headway at counselling the other, day, we still have a long way to go, but we are getting there. She is a beautiful girl, but carries alot of anger which scares the life out of me.

I am going to wrap this up now before I start blubbering again, lol So I just want to say thanks again for everyone's friendship.

Cheers
Nicky

Hey there thanks for sharing your story and no your not at all mad or off to the nut house BELIEVE ME ..The nut house and I have been corrosponding alot lately (not me in there or going yet LOL )

We all have times in our lives where we need a cruch and if Jimmy is that well done to you .Some choose worse than that and come off 2nd best.Im sure all of us at one time has been lifted by his music and we all have great memories of the times we spent listening to him.
At least we're not shooting crap in our vains or up our noses or stuffing other people's lives up and like they say music sooths the savage beast in my case Im not so sure .The month Ive had I too have been cranking up the music and doing a little soal seaching .hang in there with your daughter and coodos for you for seaking councilling at least your talking. Raising kids is never an easy job but well worth the effort and remember theyre just learning to be people too as we all are......
hope alls well and your cranking that music full ball
love wombie xxxx

Nicky,
I can assure you that you're not alone in embracing music to get you through life's challenges.
For me, it was Don Walker's songs articulated through Jimmy Barnes that has had a profound impact on my life. Cold Chisel and Jimmy Barnes' music got me through my darkest days (2 years ago). For that, I am eternally grateful.
It's great that you can relate to Jimmy's music - it makes it mean all the more to you.
Jimmy Barnes and Cold Chisel are pure gold - Australia should be very proud of them.
As we say in New Zealand ... Kia Kaha (stay strong)
Rob NZ Fan
P.S. Thank you Jimmy, Don, Ian, Phil & Steve for years of Great music.
P.P.S. Bring back Cold Chisel
P.P.P.S Jimmy, The Mangawhai Tavern Concert was awesome ! ‘Merry-Go-Round’ Rocked ! Please come back again soon.