This has been one hell of a ride for me. I ask in a Sweatlodge to get rid of the pain I have been carrying for 37 years. The answer that was given to me was, "The love of a good women and a dog will free you." I thought that was kinda dumb cause I am a hard ass trained killer and have nerves of steel and a hart to go with it. Well!!!!!!!!!! Guess I'm not that hard ass anymore. Thank you Lady Hawk for teaching me love. Thank you Simba for teaching me, its ok to cry now, I'm not going to get shot for making noise of boohooing. Its kinda late in life for me to learn this but the Grandfathers say its time to turn it loose. Boy did it turn loose, When We say to some one that we love them, its not just words, Its a feeling and giving part of ones spirit to them. Thanks to all that responded to the post. I truly love my chainsaw carving family. And thank you Lady Hawk and Simba for bringing me to this point in life. I love you both.