letting some shit off

I just need to let off some pistivity. I want to die and i don't want to die even more so i hope i don't die and if some one kills me i will be thankfull and Angry as hell and i will come back and haunt that mother fucker or fuckers and kill them all untill they die and i take they're souls and use there body's to re-incarnate myself and i'll come back to the living just to steal a big green fucking airplane and fly it as high into the sky as possible and then i'll jump out with out a parashoot and free fall to my new death as it should be and as i have always planned it. So Fuck all of you for not knowing i exist because i do. I exist and my existence is more important than any other stupid fuckers becuase... it just is... i am me... and i am alive... i'm alive to show you how much alike we all are and how diffrent we all can be. ... Red fucking rings around the wrist... pockets full of razorblades ... making marijauna braids and burning them into the spirit of humans and non humans together. we all exist in our own minds but we only exist if we exist in that person or things mind and thoughts..... if your not thought of ... your dead.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck... this is not working i'm not feeling any better than before... i don't know why i'm even writing this shit... i want to just sleep but i'm so fucking angry and don't know why.
i have no fucking reason to be angry other than the fact that i'm all pissed off and i don't know why... and i'm thinking thoughts about death and suicide but i don't want to die or kill myself!!! (yet) What the fuck is wrong with me!!! Maybe i need drugs??? Fuck it.
fuck it all... good night... i'll find sleep some time... but i'm not going to find it here so i must stop writing.... I love you megan. still miss you.