Hello,

I was wondering if you could give me some advice. But first let me explain my history to you.

I've moved around a lot (military brat). And when I was just entering high school I was currently living in Canada. While there my family would regularly see a homeopathic doctor. After several months I noticed a noticable change in my perception. I became VERY religious and seemed to be able to sense things about people. The scariest thing was I could sometimes touch something and know about it. I hated touching some wiccan pendants in a store (even thought they were very pretty looking) because I would get very sick to my stomach and get chills.

Anyway. We moved away from there and I finished high school in Colorado. I don't really percieve things the way I used to, and I developed very severe depression as well as a perscription drug addiction. I took medications that made things worse, and I put myself in terrible situations. Needless to say, everything came to a head last year and I tried to kill myself. Since then I have failed school, lost my faith and have no direction in my life.

My depression is undercontrol and I'm very happy now, but I wonder why I suddenly lost my abilities and developed depression immediatly afterwards. Sometimes I still feel things, but I've developed a defense mechanism where I basically detatch myself from reality, so I don't know if those feelings are real or not.

My sister has simmilar problems too (along with abilities, though completely different than mine) and the development of her problems also started after we moved.

I'm curious, could moving have affected me? And why would I suddenly lose any special abilities and suddenly develope depression? And how can I tell I'm actually FEELING some outside force and its not just my mind making it up?

Thank you so much if you could toss some theories out there.

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first off all, i'm not a proper psychic, but i know a fair deal about psychicness, so just read, before disregarding this as a useless pile of.. sludge...

well, after reading that, your depression would most likely be a result of lossing your abilities, as you worded it, to sense things, i personally don't sense the state of things, as you seem to, like sense what things were used for, it could be related to you moving, it could be where you were, you had something very psychic in your life, that was leaving its remains on you, maybe your house itself had some psychic residue so to speak, and its impact was powerful enough, and enough in doses, to have an almost permenantly impact on you, you say it happened to your sister too, but when you moved it vanished, and you developed depression, i don't know much about depression, other than its a bad thing to have, and it makes you think your entirely worthless, or it does with some, but, my impression would be, something in your day to day life, that you came into contact with several times a day, for prolonged times, something that didn't move with you caused your psychic side to come out, for that reason i imagine your 'abilities' started when you moved to that house? maybe afew weeks later, maybe even months later? and so your 'abilities' prevailed, and you could sense the good and bad in things, maybe people aswell, if you had practiced it enough, but from what you have said, you were trying to push it out?

if pushing the 'ability' out, then maybe thats why you have depression, because psychicness is your mind reaching out on another level, or another plain, and by you pushing it out, you've denied your mind, what your mind wants, which is having its effect on you, maybe you should try sensing what things were used for again and see if you feel a bit happier, or if you wish, since you are already happy, maybe you could try forgetting about your psychicness, and pretending it was all just a dream, which, to be honest, would disappoint me, as i for one intend to improve my psychic ability, just last night i managed to project my mind into someone elses head, and i described my girlfriends house to her, 90% accurately, and that, to me, is an amazing ability, and i wouldn't give it up for the world, to have an avantage, and to see what other people see, and who knows, maybe in 5, 10, or 20 years, i'll be able to control people to a certain extent, i'll be able to say things through them, as opposed to just see things through them, your 'ability' is different to mine, and you sense the bad, not just the good, but maybe in years to come, you'll sense when something bad is about to happen, you'll touch your car, and sense the cars gonna get hit if you go in it, and walk instead, who knows what can happen in years to come.

Andy