Since you've set such high standards for yourself and then suddenly given them up at least you realize you can't reach your goals.
Honestly, Mario....I don't think you had a nervous breakdown. I have seen someone have a nervous breakdown before - twice. It sounds like your depressed or extremely stressed out. Yeah, shit happens in life, but you have to take it in stride and not let everything get to you. It sounds like you have some anger problems. Maybe you should try anger management or something.
I probably sound like a bitch right now, and I apologize if I do. I just don't understand how you can sit here one day saying how you want to become a performer so bad and then come out the next and say "F**k it". Your life will go nowhere if you don't do something about it. Fame and Fortune won't come to you. I, too, would love to be an actress someday, and I know that I probably won't make it right off, but I'm not giving up. I'm going to college to become a teacher so then if I go out and try to become an actress and it doesn't work out, then I can fall back on it. But if you haven't tried it, then you shouldn't even give up on your dreams.