Hello all,
I've read the forums and heard the stories, it's easy to stylise the OTW, the MM or the W, but it seems that in most cases, being human life just took it's toll.
I am tormented in my situation - I would just like to cast it out in to the water and see what comes back.
I am the OTW. Which confounds me even now because my very own family was so hurt by my father cheating on my mother with another woman.
My situation: I've been in my relationship for almost a decade. My spouse is great in so many respects I treasure and value him and know I could find no one on earth like him - however though we love each other, it is a little distant, we have very independant lives and we have sex at most 10 times a year (more realistically once every 3 months). His libido is very affected by stress and he is very stressed and work and with life. Keep in mind I am not one of those women who turn off after a while and don't provide - I have tried to spice up our relationship for years. But he is a good man, and despite the extreme hurt and depression I have never strayed.
MM's situation: He has completely spoilt his wife, who has never had a job and is mentally immature, she does not respect him, and she marginalises him in the family so even the children don't respect him. They have been fighting and on the brink of divorce of years and years but for the sake of their children, he has just taken it and contiued with his life.
I'm a little sketchy on how everything all happened because I sure as hell didn't intend anything - because I like many others subscribe to the thought that you need to make yourself 'available' to cheat.. but I and MM worked together, got to know each other, became friends, flirted, flirted a little too hard, crossed the line a little - decided to meet to talk about it, we cooled off then, he caught me off guard and kissed me... I denied him, but we stayed friends - over a year or so, got even closer, truely understood each other, and fell into a companionship, comforting love. One based on a desire to love each other but not to hurt anyone around us - to keep our secret to each other to give us strength in our painful existences.
was that so wrong?
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