message title - may t

time is running out. the safeline has been c*t. just me again, drifting. can understand why it has been c*t, but now i am alone in the ocean. no energy to fight, no desire to stay afloat. no land in sight. each time i think i see land it turns out to be an illusion, an illusion of safety that disappears as i get closer. they say i am going round in circles, but that is the nature of drifting. they say i need to do something, but i have never been a strong swimmer and the current is too strong to swim against. they gave be a lifebelt, but that drifted away too. i attempt to move closer to safety, but my attempts are not enough to get me there. i am so tired, i cannot swim hard enough or fast enough to escape this l*thal current.