woke UP and just felt sad.. and just feeling like your the weakest person to yourself. that how i feel today. I think sometimes when i post on here and read other post it bothers me. maybe that is what is wrong today with me.. just think i need a hug...
I hope everybody has a good day. going to be 100 here today... ughh.
Good morning, April. My H and I are in a bad cycle these days and I have felt the heaviest weight of sadness on my chest. There's nothing particularly new I've found...unless its a new angle on how to interpret the old stuff. It just hurts that my life's fabric now has this crisis so interwoven into it.
Anyway, I can absolutely relate to the big, bad sad that's just thick in the air. So hugs to you, and hope that we can STOP! And choose at least moments of happiness, gratitude, perspective.
You know what?? Right now, I'm going to make my kids a (late) breakfast, but I'm going to put my heart and sould into making it one GREAT breakfast.
Can I challenge you to find one thing to do today that you can do GREATLY, too? Let's try together. ((April)) Blue Iris
"We cannot wait for the storm to pass; we must learn to walk in the rain."
Success on the breakfast front! I made pancakes (their favorite), and added plums from the back yard on the plate. I also put a flower bud from the garden on each plate. To top it all off, I took fancy linen napkins and folded each into a bunny.
And, April, when all that was done, and the activity and motion subsided, I could/can still feel the sadness in the air. I know I can't glide on the momentary lifts I create for long. There are times I don't have the capacity to begin the efforts of "creating greatness". But I need to recognize there are moments of opportunity to grab, too - whether its for ourselves or for others.
And today, you and I, we did. Maybe this afternoon, we will again. Here we are: two birds with broken wings, looking to soar, taking little test flights to strengthen the muscles. Sometimes, its good to just rest. Sometimes, its good to stretch the wings. BlueIris
"We cannot wait for the storm to pass; we must learn to walk in the rain."
OH blue as I read your post just now. the tears came flowing down my face. I know as the days goes bye I need to stand up and try to fly a little and see the growth . But today it seem I can't find the strength.
I"m sorry for you pain blue you in itself are a strong and kind women. who offers so much to other. and when I need something you are there.
But for today all I feel is sorrow and saddness maybe tomorrow will be a better day. just seem today no matter what i try to do the saddness seem to over take the goodness.
You did exactly what you were supossed to do. You took time out for yourselves even it were just for a little while. I remember the sadness but I can tell you it does go away. Not totally but you won't wake up with it one day. And then you will think, wow so this is how it feels. I still have sad moments. It will catch me off guard but I won't let it consume my day anymore. Each day will get better, I know right now it doesn't seem that way but it will. Keep doing little things for yourself. Get your self-esteem back up there and try and only give yourself a certain amount of time to be sad.
I was just thinking man I"m having one pitty party for myself today.. I know this will all pass. I think sometimes when I"m not sure why I"m sad. it bothers me more . I wish I was on the beach walking today. now that would be something for me I would love right now.. guess I could go put on the sprinkler in the sand box find some ocean music LOL.. and walk around in circles
So, April, girl, just nest away today. There's nothing wrong sometimes with just acknowledging the pain, seeing it, holding it. Do what you can to comfort yourself - - whatever that is that works for you. Honoring and respecting how you feel is part of what gives you the strength later to take wing and create greatness. I'll be thinking of you and hoping that you find physical and emotional shade on this hot, sad day. (And you, sweetie, made me smile thinking of our April walking in circles in a sandbox.) Be well. BlueIris
"We cannot wait for the storm to pass; we must learn to walk in the rain."
When a post bothers you step back and read it later if you want...just be of the mindset that those are not your set of problems right now but can relate to how they are feeling and if you struggled with that particular situation what did you do that helped you thru that problem...sharing your experience helps you so much too...because you can see your progress.
((((((((((April)))))))
Pat
"Time is precious, but truth is more precious than time."
