I will try and write you more later if I am not too tired when the boys go to bed.
I wanted you to know the Doctor (my new Dr. whom I am excited about), prescribed CIPRALEX for me. I am not happy that I feel I need to take these drugs (antidepressants). But, living how I do (the whole marriage thing) and all, has had me down for so long.
Anyhow, I have surrendered to medication, but wondered if any of you have taken this drug? Good/not so good stories in your experience taking this drug? I am trying to be positive and keep in mind, I do know meds react different with different people.
I am balling my eyes out here. I am so angry, I am so sad (the reasoning for needing these meds). Gotta thank my husband once again!
I am so tired from three years of sleep disturbance (night awakening from this depression because of his affair and treatment that has followed). I am so tired of being depressed.
Did I mention the Dr. also prescribed Ativan for sleep?
Anyone know anything about Cipralex and or Ativan?
Thank you for your friendships, your help and support.
Please don't feel bad about taking medication. We all know how indescribably destructive and devastating A's are. When I was prescribed A's, my IC told me that I really needed to give myself a break and I think of my medications as gifts to myself.
After some trial and error (and be prepared to make adjustments) I am on a daily "cocktail" of zoloft and wellbutrin. It really helped me to cope, to think a little more clearly and I am now getting ready to go off.
I was also prescribed Ativan,but for panic attacks. In the early days, I would have terrible flashbacks. I could be sitting in my apt., knowing my H was having dinner with our son and still re-live the nights I was home alone and he was with OW. That is when I would take Ativan and it really, really helped. Also made me sleepy so that is probably why your Dr. prescribed for sleep. Now, I rarely take Ativan but always have them with me and that gives me comfort.
Insomnia is also a big problem for me. Again, after a lot of trial and error, I found that Lunesta works best for me.
You may also want to do some internet research on your medications. I did an found it helpful - also gave me questions to ask my IC. (She is psychiatrist so can also prescribe meds.)
Welbutrin is an antidepressant.
Lunesta is a sleep aide.
I resorted to anti-depressants when I was non-functional and I reaaaaalllllyyyyy didn't want to. But, it was the best thing I could have done for myself. It'll take a bit for it to kick in. I hope you have the same experience.
Off my other theory that a broken heart is like a broken leg. Give yourself a break -you'd take pain killers for a broken leg so allow yourself the appropriate pain killer for a broken heart/life/dreams.
You are finally doing something to take care of yourself, try not to beat yourself up for it.
Both Zoloft and Wellbutrin are anti-depressants. I was originally on Zoloft alone and didn't like side effects - sexual dysfunction primarily and IC warned that it has been associated with weight gain, though that did not happen to me - I was barely eating during that time.
So tried Wellbutrin alone but I was still pretty obsessive, which Zoloft helps treat. So now take low, low dose of Zoloft WITH Wellbutrin and bingo - felt much better. (I did do a lot of research on my own and both of my brothers are doctors so did feel really comfortable with taking medications. If there is something that can help, I am all for it.....but again, a very personal choice.) IC is now gone until September but now feel strong enough to wean myself off then. BUT, if I need them, I would take them again in a heartbeat and not consider myself a failure at all.
Sleeping aids - I have also tried a lot. Didn't like Ambien - woke up 4 hours later with eyes open and anxiety building. Long working Ambien did not work for me. Lunesta seems to be working and lasts longer than Ambien.
As I said earlier, the Ativan is in my bag gathering dust but I am really glad it is there just in case.....IC said this is often how it works with panic attacks but that I shouldn't be afraid to use it if I need to.
IC and brothers have warned me that medications often have "poop out" factors, where body adjusts and they just stop working as well. That doesn't seem to have happened yet for me, though.
I think I have been on the meds for going on two weeks now. Two weeks tomorrow.
The good first......I AM CRYING LESS AND THINKING LESS (DWELLING) ON HOW DEPRESSING MY LIFE HAS BECOME "SINCE MY HUSBAND GETTING INVOLVED WITH OTHER WOMAN,,,". I simply don't think of it nearly as often and going about living each day (less the love and involvement of my husband that I USE TO HAVE). I am not "happy" so to speak, but not messed up as I have been over the past three years. So this is all good.
I think I am also more relaxed because both my kids have been in camps for two weeks straight. THIS HAS GOTTA HELP!
On the negative meds note..........some weird kinda tension thing going on in my legs. I mostly only notice it if I am sitting or laying down. Any of you experience this? Perhaps this is just temporary??
Ativan is not helping for the sleep at all. Maybe I need to take a higher dose than .5 mg.
If you are getting weird side effects like a strange feelign in your legs, make sure you tell your doctor (it may be called restless leg syndrome). Even if he/she can't do anything abuot it, they will atleast know it is happenning in case somethign else creeps up at a later date.
As for increasing your Ativan, please see your doctor before doing that. S/he will probably recommend increasing thedosage, but they will also know if an increase might act adversely with other meds and/or your body itself (Ativan is a very powerfulk drug,so I have been told).
It is good that you are aware of how your body and minda re reacting to the drugs. Congratulations on feeling better.
