God, does anyone else feel like this sometimes? I have nothing really to write, no new event that took place to complain about or something bad that happened but I feel like sh#t. We were driving today and the A just popped in my mind. Feels weird saying because it’s on my mind all the time but this was a different thought. It was about a specific incident or sexual image. It was almost like the magnitude of the A, of what took place and what I am dealing with hit home. I could feel my heart sink and I feel sooo depressed and upset right now. It feels like I have all this pain and I don’t know what to do with it. I feel uneasy, I’m crying but want to get mad and scream, or just calmly give up or wake her up and make love to her because I want to be close to her.
I know how you feel. It's awful. That has been happening to me, too the last week. I can't sleep; I just feel anxious.
I don't know what to do with the pain. My H says channel it into making a happy future. I try that sometimes, but like you said, every now & again I get the mental images & the anxiety.
sorry hartbroken....I wish it were all easier on us. but how could it be....
I'm tired too
Tired of getting punched in the gut by a trigger
an action
lack of action
whatever
it gets ridiculous sometimes
take care
you're not alone
I'm right with you
not sure what to do, i wish I had an answer to your pain
then I'd have an answer to mine too
I am so sorry you are hurting. Unfortunately what you are feeling is comepletely normal. We all have these flashbacks. And as most people will tell you, including your IC/MC, it is part of the trauma and is called PTSD (Post Traumadic Stress Disorder), whenever we have sufferd a severe trauma in our lives. It takes time, but these flashbacks and images will fade in time as you heal.
Just sending ((((((((((((((big hugs)))))))))))
~ CAL
"You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection" ~ Buddha
