Welcome, Deanie. I am so very sorry that your H's bad choices have brought you here. I, too, lurked for months and months before finding my voice. I hope our "community" has given you some form of indirect help while you were lurking...and now that you are stepping forward, I hope we can offer more direct comfort and support. We understand (like friends and family who've never gone through this) why it is so difficult to just "bounce back". How I wish it were that easy!
I'm glad to hear your H is finally understanding your pain. That's really a more important starting point towards healing than the marker of DDay. That the OW has stalked and actually poisoned you can only have crippled you further emotionally and delayed any progress towards "bouncing back". What does your H say/feel about the stalking and other criminal activity? Do you have a restraining order on the OW?
I hear the exhaustion in your voice. This time of year brings its own exhaustion in addition to the burden we carry while healing. Consider Healing Hearts a big warm room with a fireplace to warm yourself, with lots of folks who "get it", who'll share the weight of your burden. Sometimes, there's a new idea for how to shoulder the weight of the load. Sometimes just talking about it, lends some relief. Amazingly, there are moments of hope and levity.
Again, welcome, Deanie. ((hugs)) BlueIris
"We cannot wait for the storm to pass; we must learn to walk in the rain."
