Thank you!!! Gee, it's so cool that you did that portrait of the H! (the 4th one over) tee hee. You made my day! Hugs, E

Thank you Edie.  The customers loved that one too

Painting the pumpkins is a bit of a trigger for me.  But I am doing OK.  I am not going to let OW invade every aspect of my life.

One of the first times I painted a Harley pumpkin for my H and brought it in, it turned up missing a few days later.  I asked H what happened to the pumpkin.  He said he gave it away to someone who wanted it.  I was so mad...and I remember thinking he gave it to some woman I bet (OW loves Harley stuff).  I told him that I made that pumpkin especially for him and he thought I was over-reacting.  I suspect he gave it to OW.  In fact, it was on my mind last night so I asked him about it again.  He said he doesnt even remember the incident and that he never gave OW any of my pumpkins.  Well, my gut tells me otherwise.  I tend to believe my gut over my H these days.

As we all know, the WS has a selective memory after d-day when it comes to the A and OP.  It is very frustrating. Either they really don't remember an incident because they were in the fog or it was no big deal to them, or they choose not to tell us the truth for fear of hurting us and at the same time protecting themselves.

Take Care....Carol~

I was thinking about that same thing. I thought,"Carol had so much time last year because of the A", well we both know what stupid liars people can be. I'm glad that you won't allow the OW to consume you. It's like being strong has turned into a habit!!! A natural defense that just kicks in AND is good for you!!!

You know, I believe your H has come to his senses, it doesn't diminish the pain or change what he did to you. Only on the other side of time will you know whether you can make it or not. But just think of all the joy your artwork has brought people through those pumpkins. I would be fueled to create more and more!

Made me think of a familiar type story. When my H and I were first going out...we were a year into our relationship. His xGF reared her ugly headand started bothering us on a regular basis. We had gone to Mexico to visit his family and his cousin gave us each one of these artifacts. A small about 6 or 7 in. aztec looking figure, they were very old. When we got home from our trip he gave them both to her. For years that ate away at me, I was really hurt.

Well I was watching Sylvia Brown on Montel and a woman in the ausience brought one to the show and asked Sylvia about it. She said that since they had gotten it, it seemed to have brought bad luck. She looked at it and said, "Bury it immediately, it was stolen from a buriel site". I almost choked because it was exactly like the two we had!! So then I didn't feel so bad anymore!! (evil smirk).

Thanx again Carol for checking up on me. The last month and a half have been so rough....it means so much to me that someone cares about me! Wow what a concept. Take care, hugs. C