I can't seem to believe how big Nathanael is despite his small size but for the last 2 weeks I've been putting him to bed awake once I see him winding down. He goes right in, snuggles his knees under him and I cover him, rub his back (irresistable) and for the last few nights when I say g'night he says "niii" Brought tears to my eyes tonight.
Tears because some parents have to loose their children and those sweet g'nights and some parents can't appreciate those little things in their children. Tears because that little voice is the most sweetest and angelic voice and he's so delicious I want to scoop him back up for more cuddles and love. but I know if I do he'll go into over-tired mode and that's no good for anyone. As tired as I am, sometimes I just don't want to let him go. For me, it's an intense love, a different kind of love borne out of the realization that far too many children suffer, suffer from illness, neglect or abuse. I'm not trying to sound pessimistic...quite the contrary. I'm so grateful that I was introduced to this world of differently-abled children. I'm so glad that I got the gift of being able to parent someone so fantastically wonderful. I pray every night, feeling unworthy of this gorgeous child yet know I have this awesome responsibillity and honor. Just being a mom is an honor. To be entrusted with the well-being of another spirit is an honor.
yeah I'm a bit mushy tonight. I can't fathom what Christina's family is going through, what Mikey's family still must be going through, what Gabi's family must still be going through and what that little boy in Canada is going through. What really gives me hope and promise is the fact that they're
going THROUGH this. The term going through means there's a coming out on the other side. This was something I learned when in a homeless shelter for battered women. They kept saying "you'll get through this" and I clung to those words because it said that there was indeed an other side and I was going to reach that side.
I had the best evening of Nathanael really wanting to sit in my lap, he was in a silly mood and I was signing "silly" and he kept doing it on his lips..which led to lip strumming..which led to raspberries..which led to full-on belly laughs..which led to him going mmmmmmmmwahhhh ..planting the biggest kiss on me. SO much fun, love and cuddles. I don't see him as 'down syndrome child' he's meerly my child. My love.
Kitty ~n~ Nathanael
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"This is the day that the Lord hath made..let us rejoice and be glad in it" Psalm 118:24
John 1:47 Jesus saw Nathanael• coming to him, and saith of him, Behold an Israelite indeed, in whom is no guile•!
