A friend of mine (33) just announced that she is pregnant for the first time. Despite having all kinds of "female problems", a major weight gain over the past year and VERY bad eating habits, she got pregnant on her very first IUI. So after trying to pick myself spirits back up after AF coming to visit day before my 43rd birthday (on Saturday), her news just totally floored me and threw me back into a funk. As happy as I want to be about her pregnancy, it's like salt in a wound to me. This past year, I feel like I've worked so hard to do everything right (changed my diet, worked out, taken fertility drugs and herbs -- not at the same time, had three IUIs) to have a baby and she just lucked into it on the first try. I know it's wrong to feel this way. But, it just seems so overwhelmingly unfair. I keep telling myself, "well, she IS 10 years younger than you!" But, that still doesn't console me. In some ways, it just makes me feel worse. I'm really trying to wrestle back the green-eyed monster in me. But, so far, I'm not winning.
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