You guys are the absolute BEST - you are so sweet to think of me and Daisy. I'm sorry I have not posted. I've not been to the board for a few days. The awful events in London and my friend's 7th m/c put me in quite a downer for a while, so I had a mini-break from the board.
Also, to be truthful. I'm feeling a bit of a fool. I think I must be mad to think #2 will happen for us. It hasn't happened in nearly 4 years so why should it happen in 5/6/7 years? I'm seriously wondering if I am stupid to keep trying and is this sensible behaviour? I can't think of anything else I have persisted in doing, when all evidence points to the contrary.
About the London bombings - they were horrifying and yet it beggars belief they were just a smaller scale example of similar attacks in Madrid, Bali and New York. I will never forget the images of 9/11 as long as I live.
I've been mostly lurking now for quite a while, but I still check on all my ttc board buds everyday!! I kept waiting to see you post and finally decided to get proactive about it!
Sorry you're down Darcy. I know exactly how you're feeling though, unfortunately. After some seriously dedicated ttc'ing for three years with absolutely nothing to show for it, not even a chemical pg, I think I have finally given up. I'll be 43 in August and this journey has emotionally exhausted me. Even now after having "given up" every month when it's time for AF I still get a little flutter of hope. . .maybe she won't show up.
So sorry to hear about your friend, I just can't imagine how horribly heartbreaking that must be to go through so many times. It sounds like you're taking good care of her though.
Glad to see you're okay, Darcy, I was worried about you!!
Three years - it STINKS! I'm so sorry you have reached the end of the road. I thought you put it wonderfully, the description of having mentally given up, but your heart still fluttering every time AF approaches. You have said it all for me. I'm glad you are still lurking and keeping an eye on us all!