Thanks for sharing those Angel, and hi to you Maaj too.by JosannaJava (Login JosannaJava)Today being sunday I am off to church and sunday school, then work 3 days, then we go back down to the boat at Lake Cumberland in Kentucky. Hubby does all the driving, but the 6.5 hrs at least each way and all the lugging of stuff back and forth, it is exhausting. Yes, there is down time there, but it is tiring and my body hasn't adjusted yet. But this upcoming trip maybe my last this season as hubby hopes to get it all winterized then it will stay in the water as too big to trailer out and put it somewhere else. Then Oct 15th I have a 72 hr women's only retreat at a campground through the Methodist church I am currently a member of. I am told this will be a lifetime experience, so a little nervous yet looking forward to it to. Trying to keep up with exercising when I am home, but sometimes I am so tired and leary of lifting even 5# free weights as I had some reoccurence of pain a couple weeks ago after doing some 5 and 6 dumbbells. Food wise, well, I gained 5# or so over the summer, but given my potential for gaining and my history of food binging, not that bad. Come November 5th, I am doing intense EMDR therapy on the role my Mom had in my childhood and one of the first incidents we are using is when I admitted to her in second grade I binged on raw spaghetti. I got to thinking, then quit thinking as I need to leave this for Nov 5th and my wise therapist help with it all, but IF Mom had only handled that differently, I may never have developed the dysfunctional relationship I have with food. In my dream world Mom would have said: "Honey, I love you, you don't need to turn to food for comfort. Please come to me, I will listen, I will love you, I will give you a hug. You can come to me anytime and know that I love you unconditionally. I am sorry your Dad yells at you and acts like he does. It isn't your fault he is an alcoholic." Oh well, back to reality. Thanks for listening to my long narrative here. Angel: I hope life improves for you and your sons. Maaj: love to you too. Josie. from IP address 24.210.130.148 Respond to this message Return to Index
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