FET done... need some support

Hi Girls,

I'm home from my FET. We had four embryos frozen on day 3 back in 2010 (two 10-cells, one 9-cell, and one 7-cell). The lab thawed the 9-cell and 7-cell embryos, which surprised me because I'd figured they would start with the 10-cellers.

Both embryos survived the thaw.
My 9-cell thawed to a 7-cell.
My 7-cell thawed to a 3-cell.
My initial reaction was that these results were not too good.

The resident RE told me they look to transfer embryos that near 8-cell at an FET of 3-day embryos. When I asked why they bypassed thawing my two original 10-cellers, he said those might be "too accelerated" and the 9-cell and 7-cell were more likely to reach the magic 8-cell FET goal.

The resident RE said that both embryos were fine quality to transfer, but because we do not want more twins, we agreed to transfer only the 7-cell embryo.

A part of me felt really, really sad when the attending RE told me the 3-cell embryo would be discarded.

The attending RE told me the embryo looked "very nice" and asked me how old I was when I generated these embryos. I reminded him that our donor was 24. His face took on an even happier aspect, and he said: "Oh well then, this will be a robust embryo. I'd say you have at least 40% chance of success here, and I'm being very conservative."

The transfer went smoothly. He congratulated me, and that was all.

Now home, I'm feeling uneasy:

1.) I am researching FET and seeing that most women who successfully delivered one live baby had transferred as many as 4 embryos (some blasts). My clinic, by the way. only goes to day 3. I know single embryo transfer was the right choice, yet I feel sad and suspect my success rate will suffer.

2.) The doctors know best, but I really wish they had thawed my 10-cell embryos.

Anyone able to help me feel better?

xo
cat

P.S. Beta June 1.