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A father-in memory of my beloved brother who lost his battle to cancer in January

June 17 2012 at 11:01 AM
Murph  (Login MurphToo)

at the young age of 56...he will never see his kids marry...he will never see his Grandchildren...we miss him so, so much

I'm normally a private person...not sure why I'm posting this...perhaps it's cathartic... I don't know

Happy Fathers Day to all the wonderful Daddys on this board who walked beside each of us and gave us strength to walk on through our IF journeys
Give your Dads/Husbands a tight hug today

Love to all....

He walked through life as a great gentleman. A quiet, reserved man who approached everything and everyone with respect, dignity and grace. He had great humility. Although his life was full of numerous accomplishments, it was not his way to brag or call attention to himself; he was unassuming. He was committed and loyal to his wife and family. He was a devoted father to his children and devoted husband to his wife. His wit was like no other...always perfectly timed...this trait was inherited by his children. When those beautiful blue-gray eyes twinkled, you knew he was preparing to say something brilliantly witty! He lived life on a straight track...perfectly grounded and never losing his way. He was never one to complain. He was compassionate and tolerant of all views and all others. He had a great ability to see the good in everything. He walked through life peacefully and walked through his disease with the same sense of peace.

Some believe ones character is truly revealed during a time of adversity, crisis or challenge...His character was true throughout his life...and through his illness.

On the day of his DX, my bro had a road to choose. While many would have chosen a road of despair and dead bro chose to remain true to his character and follow the road less traveled...a pitched battle against formidable odds.

In the words of Robert Frost's, The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I
I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference

In reflecting on Frost's words...I draw a parallel between Frost's poem and my bro's journey.

He was very aware of his future destination. He did not stand alone, however. He stood with his dear and beloved wife. Together they stood. Together they looked into the future and together they chose the better claim; the road less traveled. His wife got right to work becoming my bro's tireless and committed advocate consulting every expert in the field and researching all and every possible treatment plan. My bro chose to walk that grassy road. He chose to fight the fight with the valiant spirit and determination of a great warrior. He wore down that grassy road with his will and spirit to live for his family. The road was bumpy full of unpredictable twists and turns. The road was risky...full of questionable challenges. The road presented frequent trials...days of rain...steep hills to climb...days of fog...windy days which brought turbulence. Yet...he was steadfast, persevered and never faltered. He continued to walk on to fight the fight because of his endearing love for his wife and children.

He walked the walk selflessly. Although it was clear that he was not feeling well my bro always thought of others before thinking of himself. He brought bouquets of flowers to me and my sister...for no reason...a "NO DAY" gift from a man suffering so. While enduring such pain, he appeared at a special needs fundraiser for children and was determined to walk a mile. On a particularly difficult and challenging day for my bro, he got himself dressed...and appeared at his mother's side to celebrate her 79th birthday. Most would have chosen a different road...not my bro. While knowing where the road would take him...he continued walking with dignity and grace. He continued walking with great sense of character. He continued walking with a twinkle in those beautiful blue-gray eyes that have the brilliance to light up one's soul. He continued to walk in peace...never complaining...never drawing attention to himself. He continued to walk with inspiration. His example to his children continued on. He continued to encourage them to follow their dreams no matter what may lie at the end of the road for their Dad.

Indeed, I shall tell this with a SIL has lost her dear husband, her children have lost their father, my parents have lost a son, we have lost a brother and a dear, true friend. Somewhere ages and ages hence we pray the burden of our loss will ease. He chose a road less traveled. He did not give up. He kept fighting...despite his pain...despite his fear...despite his worries. He conducted himself in life in the same way he conducted himself through his illness... He braved his battle and left this world with the same quiet dignity and steadfast strength of character with which he lived his life. As family & friends we have all learned from his example...that even in the greatest despair one can choose a road of dignity, grace, serenity and humility...and in Frost's words..."that has made all the difference"

My dear brother...

I find strength in the words of the man you introduced me to at the age of 13...Bruce Springsteen

Familiar faces around me
Laughter fills the air
Your loving grace surrounds me
Everybodys here

We WILL someday Meet at Mary's Place...and when we do ...we WILL have one heck
of a party.

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  1. What a beautiful tribute Murph - Margolis on Jun 17, 2012, 12:27 PM
    1. So dear, my friend. How is your LO? - Murph on Jun 17, 2012, 1:25 PM
      1. We are exhausted but great. How are your LOs doing? Nt - Margolis on Jun 17, 2012, 6:17 PM
  2. Beautiful - FL Gal on Jun 17, 2012, 1:15 PM
    1. Not an easy day... - Dee S. on Jun 17, 2012, 5:17 PM
      1. Thanks Dee - FL Gal on Jun 17, 2012, 8:00 PM
    2. My thoughts and Prayers are with you Flgal. - Margolis on Jun 17, 2012, 6:23 PM
      1. Thanks M - FL Gal on Jun 17, 2012, 7:58 PM
  3. Margolis & FLGal - Thank you - Murph on Jun 17, 2012, 1:25 PM
    1. Re: Margolis & FLGal - Thank you - FL Gal on Jun 17, 2012, 4:27 PM
  4. Murph... - Dee S. on Jun 17, 2012, 5:15 PM
  6. Murph, that is a lovely piece, I am so sorry for your recent loss - Joy on Jun 17, 2012, 10:02 PM
  8. Beautiful Murph - Leslie on Jun 18, 2012, 1:41 PM
  10. touches my soul.... - sas on Jun 19, 2012, 5:42 PM
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