My little man turned 3 today. I still can't believe he's here and I'm a mom. He's so sweet and happy. He has his occasional moments but that's normal. I can't believe I can love someone so much. I swear I'm in awe every day.
Today I would look at him and start tearing up. When I did my final deivf in Prague, I kept singing to myself the INXS song "Never tear us apart" The video was filmed there and the lyrics are perfect and I've been an huge INXS fan since 1982. So it seems fitting that this band would be a part of the most important thing of my life. I'm on you tube playing the video over and over again remembering every part of my trip.
But with my bliss, there's another part of me that's sad. I gained the most perfect little boy but the scars infertility left me are permanent. Parts of me are still so damaged and know they will never be the same or close to the same.
I know it would have been much worse if not for my Green Gals. I still think of all of you. I thank G*d for all of you.
It's so weird to think I'm the mom of a 3 yr old.