Just had a marathon paddy with R lasting an hour and a half of screaming, crying. He is finally asleep. I feel frazzled/shattered. So logged on here. I feel better now just knowing you are all out there. I'm on the verge of tears which is stupid as its quiet now. I want to tidy one room here a day to just keep on top of things. Its a big house and I'm usually too tired to do anything. Today I was resolved to do one room, now with the paddy I'm too shattered to do anything. Too early in the day for a stiff drink ahaha.
I feel alone here a lot. I go out and do things sure but I'm quite alone really. I'm a people person so am feeling very isolated. It makes me feel down not being around others. I really noticed how great I felt the other week when I went out to work four days in the one week during the school holidays here. I felt like the old me. I miss that person.
Thanks for listening to my pity party
As a brag I'm still at WWatchers. I'm down to 74kgs now from 81.1. I was 86 just before R was born. Got down to 81 then stayed there for a year and a bit. I'm feeling a lot fitter and its great to fit into clothes again. Now just got to lose another 10 kgs and I"m done. Its taking time as I have PCOS and hypothyrodism.
Sorry I am such a flake today folks.