I remember that feeling well when my DD was a baby. She had colic. Dealing with a crying little one can be so hard. It is super stressful.
You seem pretty social so it would be good if you could figure out a way to be around others more often. As much as we love our little kids it is really good to get out and do other things.
Good job on the weight loss! Now that must feel so good to be able to fit back into clothes.