I don't understand why these things happen but I do believe after having lost a few pgcies as well that my soulbabies came to teach me great lessons and while they never took a breath, they brought more to the world than if they had lived a lifetime. As a result of their "being," I became more compassionate, loving and patient as a result of losing them. I changed as a mother. You will have to find your own beliefs over why this has occurred and understand with time how it will impact your life but know you are never alone. There is a wonderful group of compassionate and caring women with open arms on this board.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Hugs from Hope