Gosh, you sound exactly like me

You really do. How old is your DS? DH and I are having the exact same talks. If I'm getting so emotionally invested in IUI's, how in the world can I survive the disappointment of IVF? Not to mention the cost as we self pay. We actually conceived DS on a down cycle right before IVF in 05. It took two years to get him which included 4 iui's, 1 surgery and got pg on a natural cycle. Going back to the clinic for bloodwork and monitoring brings me so down I think maybe it would be best just to try naturally. I wish I had the strength to press forward but at the same time I wish I could let go too.... I hope you start feeling better soon.