I am so sorry it is all so hard

We had primary IF and it took 6 years to get ds#1. We had three m/c befor egetting him. During the time we were trying my sister got pg. Her and her dh were both umeployed at the time and they had said they never wanted another baby. She didn't even tell me until she was almost 6 months along and her shower was on the due date of the pg we lost before Tanner. I don't think I have ever had so many mixed emotions. Of course I was happy for her since she changed her mind and wanted another baby but they couldn't afford it, etc. Fortunately I ended up pg with Tanner before she had my niece or I am sure that would have been even harder. We have had one m/c and one more ds since then. We are now crazy and going for a third. I guess we will see what happens. I have high fsh and dh has severe male factor and we are getting older so I guess onlt time will tell. Anyway, I just wanted you to know that you are certainly not alone and it is okay to feel the way you do. Good luck!