I wish I had the answers...just empathizing...

It sounds like a lot you are dealing with. You are doing everything possible.

I just wanted to comment on the psychic. I only met one psychic once and she kind of surprised me with her intuitiveness. And apparently, one guy I knew (we are both very skeptical people) was totally astounded by her knowledge of things about him...

BUT everything she told me about the future wasn't right and she didn't get the most important things and the things that happened were BETTER than she predicted.

You can't blame yourself if things don't turn out as a psychic said they would!!! A psychic can be wrong. Of all the things to worry about in this process, I think the worst is really worrying about how we are at fault if we don't get the baby we want or if something goes wrong. We simply do not have that level of control over the world. I know that makes it seems scarier but it's also liberating. All we can do is try and do our best and it sounds like you are truly doing that!

That's just my opinion. Try to be kind to yourself. This is really hard.