Hello there. I am newly diagnosed with POF in the last few weeks and I am falling apart!! I am 31 years old!! I am in a state of serious disbelief, desperation, and depression. I thought perhaps if I share my story, I may get some help with dealing with this. Here goes...
I was on the pill for 10 years, my husband and I decided in June that I would stop taking it because we would want to start trying in September. Well I wasn't getting my period for a couple of months and I figured my body was trying to regulate itself after being on the pill for so long. I called my OB, took Provera for 10 days to try to induce a period and it didn't work. Then i went in for an US which showed a thin uterine lining and we did hormone levels. That's when my life turned upside down. I found that I had hypothyroidism, not a big deal for me. My FSH was 86. My OB gave me my horrible diagnosis and referred me to an RE. She rechecked my FSH level and just about 2 weeks later it was 170. I have been started on estrogen and progesterone. I have been taking them because I have such horrible hot flashes. But I have read that the estrogen would bring down my FSH levels which may not give me a chance of ovulating. Anyone else here of this? I feel that my RE has given me little to no hope of conceiving of my own- about a 5% chance. Also that my levels are so high- beyond medication to help stimulate any follicle production. I see my RE again in a few weeks when she'll have some genetic testing results back. I have an appointment with a psychologist tomorrow who will hopefully help me a little and help me figure out how I am going to break this news to our families.
I haven't been able to stop crying for days, haven't been able to sleep and I have been ridiculously unproductive. I think I am in deep need for some depression meds. One of the hardest things has been that many people know what my time frame for wanting to start having kids was, so it is talked about all the time- how I should be having some little one soon. It is killing me!!! I haven't told anyone and really want to keep it known just within the family. So I don't know how I am going to keep dealing with all of these comments.
We of course are thinking of our alternate options- donor egg and adoption. My husband has been the best, I couldn't be more thankful for his response in all of this. I still just feel very alone however, especially when I see so many people I know pregnant or talking of their plans for pregnancy. My heart goes out to all of you who are also having an infertility problems. Thankyou for reading this.