okay, all I'm saying is that I tripped really hard on COLD MEDICINE- I didn't say MP knew about it. I told one worker and they got rid of that medicine- I never saw it again. Noone knew I was tripping unless they looked into my eyes and I don't think anyone did- I don't even remember if my pupils were dialated. All I know is that God wanted me to trip there for some reason. Everything happens for a reason is what MP always said- maybe i'm a vessel of wrath fitted for destruction- whatever- I don't care- since I've left MP I have all kinds of fears- for a while i got really freaked out about Babylon the Great in Revelation - I got really freaked out that I might be her- I always get freaked out when I read the Bible that all of the bad stuff is talking about me- and I guess I'm convicted about it- but what am I supposed to do? the only thing I can do is to quit believing in all this hell and Satan stuff MP forced down my throat. If I believe in hell I will go insane with worry and I can't live like that- it isn't healthy.