You say that you blame Mt. Park for all of your problems. Nothing can make you behave the way you do in life. People are born with something called free will. Are you trying to say that the people from MP literally forced the needle back into your arm, or made you have sex with so many men?
Yes, MP was a shitty place for so many people. BUT, there comes a time when you have to grow up and start taking responsibility for your actions.
You have a child, why don't you put her first and stop putting yourself first?