I completely remember you and how you were treated I think a lot of us wanted to say something but couldn't, Im sorry. I know the feelings that you have although can't relate to all of them, I know what it is like to be emotionally shattered and feel used and horrible. My parent thought so much good would come from this place, when in realtiy it shattered me. I have learned how to adapt to society. I have a 3 year old son, my own house, married and divorced, am enrolled in pre-med at Loyola University to be a doctor, I manage a big company and go to church, but just because It "seems" like I have adapted and am doing good, the effects are long lasting. I have no sense of self worth or esteem which effects everything, I went through a horrible depression where I wanted to throw it all away. But you know, the only thing that helped me was looking at my son and loving him to death. In essence my son changed my life...and God but I know you don't want to hear that. Focuson your baby right now, focus on loving him. You will never be perfect. But until you get happy with your life solely being you and your child there is no place for a man in it. When you get to the point where you are happy with your life and your child THEN you should go out and date but not now, or you will only get dragged down farther. If you talk to Rachel WARE tell her Im thinking about her and give her my number (708)250-4745
Thanks honey and good luck!