Tell the truth about Mountain Park Baptist Boarding Academy aka bible believer's church of Dandridge, tn. May God have Mercy on your souls I SHALL NOT.

 


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over 6 years in and 10 years later

February 11 2010 at 3:25 PM
 

 
Ok so many of you guys might know me, know about me, or not know me at all. I haven't jumped on this band wagon for a while just because....

I was sent there when I was about 10 years old and about to turn 11. My parents really didn't have time to raise me the right way because they worked a lot to give me and my brother things that we didn't have. I kind of became out of control for them at age 10. I didn't do anything like rob stores or anything that some people got sent there for. I just didn't listen to my parents like most normal kids. I was there for just over 6 years and was one of the more "trusted" girls. I have to say I had fun while I was there. There some things that I questioned about stuffed that happened, but I was a kid and that was all that I knew.

I have to say that my experience there for better or for worse has molded me into the person I am today. I loved living with the girls. I guess growing up with girls that were older than me definitely made me mature a little faster than most other people. When I was 18 and left MP, I looked at myself and those peers around me and found that I saw life in a different light. I was behind on the music, movies, and trends. I didn't cuss and was difinitely not in the in crowd. I didn't know much about sex. I thought sleeping in the same bed with a guy was wrong. But there was one thing that MP equipped me with. That was responsibility and maturity. I am not saying that the staff there did it. It was probably I got to live with some of the best friends that I still talk to once in a while.

There are things that I definitely appreciate MP for and there are things I am angry at MP for. If it wasn't for MP, I wouldn't have the upbringing that I did have. My parents were always too busy to really care. I mean I know they cared but they were too busy working all the time. I am not sure where I would be right now and how I would have turned out if there wasn't someone there that took the time to raise me and make sure that I learned. I appreciate even the religious side of it. MP made me challenge ways of belief. I don't believe right now the way that MP had wanted us to believe, but I believe in a God and I was able to find for myself what I believe in and not just what I was told to believe. I learned to search and not just say I believe because someone else told me this is right and this is wrong. However, I am angry about the shelter life they gave me. I wish I was able to know more about the world and not just told that the world was bad. My parents and I's relationship has fallen apart too. One because I barely ever got to talk to them except once a week and most of the time they failed to call me even that much. I only got to see them once a year even though I was given the opportunity to see them twice. I am angry at MP at this point because I see them as a direct contribution to my parents and I's relationship falling apart. My parents and I haven't talked to each other in almost 10 years and I haven't seen them in almost 10 years. After all, they gave me up at 10 years of age and decided to let someone else raise me. I joined the military almost right after MP because I had always wanted to join the military. MP gave me the dicispline that I needed though to obey those in authority and get me through the training including airborne school.

I want to also take the time to apologize. I was a junior staff without the title. I was trusted. I was asked to do a lot of things that now as I look back I know were pretty questionable. The first year I was there I was spanked with a board a few times. As I grew up, I held people down for cold showers and made to drag someone around a field. I thought those where discipline measure that were by the "bible". I feel bad and think about it quite often. There are to this day I feel bad about participating in those events because I thought those things were right. I grew up there and just like people don't really question their paretns; I never questioned my actions.

10 years later... I have graduated with a Bachelor's Degree from a great University and am shooting for my masters as a Physician Assistant. I am out of the military now and am gay. However, I do have a few of the same beliefs that MP taught me like there is a God. However, I describe myself as a well balance part of society. I am not a religous person, but I believe that I do have someone to answer to for my actions. I am gay and love being gay. I work a pretty good job in a car dealership.

10 years later... it has taken me this long to actually physically get on one of these sites to tell a short story about what was my experience at MP and PL. To this day, my girlfriend, best friend/roommate, and those working with me don't know about MP. The only ties I still have is those great girls that I went to MP with that still email me through facebook and myspace.

A lot of you guys see MP in one way or the other. You either really hate MP or you really like MP. I think one way or the other MP had a way to shape our lives. I am not sure if I should hate MP all the way or like MP all the way. However, I have learned that everything that happens shape who we are today. Whether we like who we are or we don't like who we are, we all have a goal and we all are as the old saying goes "trying to get to the center of town." No matter how we get there;it just matters that we do. There are things that I am pissed off about growing up there, but I have learned to take it and move on. I can't change anything in the past. Again, I am just trying to get to the center of town.

 
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were you there with me 94-96

October 23 2011, 1:24 PM 

do i know you

 
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