Looking for contact info on Gerhardts and expressing thoughts
March 23 2016 at 3:47 AM
It has been a very long time and I recently came to the conclusion that I would like to track down either Bo or Sam and talk to them. Not in a hostile way but more of a closure deal. I recognize what a flawed person I was and can not imagine where I would be without that experience. I acknowledge how it benefited me and derailed my utter path of destruction but I am also unable to shake the feeling that my parents were exploited for financial gain. I feel that Mt Park gave me a strong sense of very basic ethics but I can also remember kids screaming in agony for hours on end while they were pretty much tortured with nerve pressure points. Those hollow looks on their faces with a ring of rug burns around their cheeks from wriggling in agony face down on the carpet is something I will never forget.
It had its good and bad moments and it left a mark in both good and bad ways. But this many years later I still have so many questions. I really want to understand their perspective. I want to talk to them and see through their eyes the things that happened back in those days. I was a marine for 4 years and I work with a lot of vets that went through hell in the VA. I guess I just really feel it is time I faced this last piece of my own unresolved issues before I can help others to the best of my ability. Cleaning that shit up will make me more of a solid person than I am now.
All I can promise is 2 things. If provided I will never share this contact information with anyone. I understand that some have very hostile intentions to these people. Regardless of if I get it here I will find their contact info through other means but this way means I wont have to call in favors. The second thing is that I will stay as objective as possible and share my experience from this with this community. Hopefully it will humanize these individuals that are so demonized on this forum. I do not know what was going through their heads but I refuse to accept that they did what they did with sadistic pleasure given my experience. Even contact information on 'Brother Davis' would be appreciated.
I would also like to apologize to TJ and Palmer. I was a total dick to you guys when you were going through hell. Its something I really do regret.
Contact me via CraigBeitelshees@Gmail.com if you are willing and able to provide this information. Or if you are just looking to chat about those long lost days.