It finally happened. Everything you have been talking about makes sense now. It made sense before, but now it is like in every part of me, not just in my head. Let me explain. I've been meditating a few months now. There have been periods, just flashes really, of quiet, of joy. But for the most part I must admit that it has been chaos: voices roaring in my head, movies playing in my head, periods of dozing off, etc. etc. But I sat through it all, like a stone in a storm, and the mantra was my anchor. Today something happened. It all became so effortless. I just let go. I stopped trying not to try. I let go and felt like I was on a roller coaster. The mantra sped up and everything got crazy. Then it happened. The chaos and the sounds and the sights and the feelings all vanished like smoke in the wind. And there was clearness. Calmess. And oh my goodness, Bliss. I have never known anything like it. It's so much more than just happiness. My very atoms were tingling with it! Forget alcohol! Forget pills! This was like being in Heaven. I couldn't stop smiling. Even after meditating, for several minutes, I was smiling. Then I started laughing. Not hysterically, just a warm chuckle. But it all felt so good! Why don't we talk more about the Bliss that is there for the taking? It really is the fabric of existence. From Bliss we come, in Bliss we live, to Bliss we return. I read that somewhere. It makes perfect sense now. Wow. What a new day. What a new life. The Bible passage comes to my mind, "Sing unto the Lord a new song."
For everything really does feel new, fresh, innocent, and full of joy! Thank you guys for making this technique available to those of us who couldn't pay what might be a month's salary to learn it. Thank you. And forgive me for rambling. I just feel so good and want everyone to know that it is real. Just keep going. Something is happening even when you don't think it is. Peace.