How frustrating, I have been there before with situations like yours, and the mix ups. Geeez! I have just about come through the phone and strangled someone. My first round of clomid I called for my results of my blood test, and the lab tech wouldn't give them to me. It was a Friday, and he was the only one left in the office, and I asked him, do you have my results. He says, "yea". I begged and begged him to tell me but he said he "wasn't authorized" to give them to me, and it had to be a doctor! I was balling for hours after I hung up. I finally got my results 3 days later, and was devestated they were negative. That was 9 months ago....and I am still TTC. =)
You mentioned somethng that has been on my mind lately, about how it's so hard not to get mad at God sometimes. I have found my relationship to be "under attack" often. I have always held strong to my walk with God, and haven't ever been shaken regardless of how bad things have gotten. But, infertility sneaks into very aspect of my life...my marriage, my sex life, my personal life, my job, my spiritual life, and even my friendships (like with pregnant friends). I hate it! I know God hears my prayers, cause He answers all of my other prayers, but never seems to answer the ones where I am begging for a baby. I have to trust He knows the bigger plan, and it's out of my hands.
But for now, I will control what is in my hands, like finding out as much as I can about infertility, and support my friends here. =)
Take care!
Love Donna
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