I'm so sorry Nancy. I can completely understand how you are feeling. Just make sure you get all the crying and sadness out so you will be ready for the next time. This is a difficult thing and it's just better to let yourself be sad. You will be up again in no time. It used to drive me nuts when people would tell me not to be upset. What do they know?
I, too, remember being worried that I was pg when I was younger. It's strange the way things work out.
I don't blame you for being resentful about your friend. She is a very real reminder of your loss but I know that you will feel better in time.
Hang on Nancy. It will happen for you in time. I just wish my crystal ball was working so I could say exactly when
Take care.
Love,
Rhonda