AF Arrived

Nancy,

Well -- AF came today. Here I thought I was so in control of all this...and now as I sit here I am absolutely bawling. DH and I just had a big fight about next steps, and I am really at the end of my rope.

I just don't know what to do next. My dr. was so disappointed. He told me that in the history of his practice, I'm one of the best responders on Clomid. My follicles have every month been big and my progesterone very high yet I can't conceive. It seems the egg just isn't being fertilized. Now we are deciding when to do IVF. DH thinks it's way too soon. I'm terrified to do it and not have it work. That's sort of been the old standby in my mind and if that doesn't work, then I don't know what I'll do.

I don't think I want to do the injections on its own because of the high incidence of high order multiples. IVF seems better because they control how many embryos they implant.

Anyway, I think we're going to do nothing artificial for the next few months and just go back to old fashioned trying. I'm thinking I'll give it 3 more months and then do IVF in July (if DH supports this).

I'm really a basket case right now. DH doesn't understand my need for this to happen now, since we are blessed with our 3 yr. old son. I know how blessed we are to have him, it's just that I want more children so desperately.

How are you doing? Did you have that tube test (I always forget the name).

Love,
Amy