Well I am one week tomarrow into my 2ww. Yikes. I haven't had any symptoms other than my crabbiness from clomid. (ha ha) I did have some cramping off and on, but it's gone now. Probably like you said Rhonda, ovaries.
I am preparing to leave brigh and early on Thursday morning for Houston Texas. Brother in law is getting married. I am doing their wedding photography, so I know I'll be busy. I am so glad these next few days are gonna be supper crazy! I want this 2ww to fly by.
I have an Hcg blood test early Monday right after I get back from Texas. Yikes. It will be 12 past ovulation then. Supposedly you can check blood for Hcg sooner than urine so I hope it'll be accurate. If it's Negative, I'll just wait for AF and maybe recheck is she doesn't come ontime.
Gosh girls, I had such a bad day on Sunday. It was DH's birthday and I had planned a really nice party with family over and everything for that night. We went to a new church that morning, and after the servicew as over they asked if anyone had any speical prayer requests to come forward after the service. DH and I waited till it was over, and went up and asked for prayer. I told the lady we were undergoing infertility treatment, and we had a procedure done last week and we wanted prayer for a positive outcome.
I had no idea she would attack me! She firt off told me we were "too young to have problems" and that we were being impatient by not letting God give us a child in His time. I told her we had tried for over a year on our own before seeking treatment. Then she started in on me and DH about how we "have little faith in God" because we are seeking treatment! I was shocked. And she lectured me about my own faith in God, and how I might have something in my life that God is punishing me for, by not giving us a child. Then she stared telling us we should adopt a girl from China and how easy it was and all that. (like she had any idea!) I have never been so hurt before by a stranger. I was speechless. My DH was furious! He told her we came to her for a prayer, not to be judge or critisized. We left right away. This isn't a really conservative church, it's very open and a nondenominational church. So I was shocked! I got to the parking lot of the church and broke down. I cried the whole way home. It was aweful. My heart had really been hurt.
People just don't know how to deal with infertility, it makes them uncomfortable. They don't know how what to say, so they try to comfort you in ways they don't understand. I have been a strong Christain all my life and so has my husband. And never before have I encountered anyone like her before, or have been treated so horribly. I disagreed with what she said and I believe my faith in God is strong. I also believe he has given the RE's the ability to help us. God can work miracles through modern medicine, I have seen them as a nurse. =) I witness the miracle of birth everyday at work. And every time I see it, I am reminded of how powerful God really is. He is bigger than my infertility.
Anyhow, thanks for letting me vent. That lady really has no idea. But our party for my husband did go well anyhow, inspite of her harsh words. (so there)
Take care everyone~ you are in my prayers!
Love Donna
Ps: Has anyone heard from Lemur?? It's been awhile.
I just read your post and I feel your pain. The woman that you spoke with obviously does not understand what it means to be Christian. She is not put on this earth to judge you, only God can do that. Please don't let her words make you feel like you are going against God's will, or that you deserve the heart ache you are experiencing. Some people truly do not understand what any of us are going through. Is there another church you might attend?
Yea, there are many other churches in the area. We just moved here a few months ago, and we'll keep looking till we find one we feel comfortable and at home at. =) (one with out scary ladies! Ha Ha Ha)
I saw your post about going in for a Follicle Scan. They are a piece of cake. It is a vaginal ultrasound, (or called u/s) have you ever had one? They have a probe or wand they use to insert into the vagina. They don't put it in very far. The wand is the "camera" and the RE can see the follicles on the ovaries and also they can measure them as well. I have had so many u/s by now, I have lost count! (ha ha) I don't think they hurt, they are just uncomfortable a little bit. The speculum hurts more I think! Ouchie.
The day I had a positive LH surge with the ovulation predictor kit, I called my RE and they had me come in for a scan. Then I went back the next day for my IUI.
Good luck and let us know what the ultrasound says! =)
Thanks for the info Donna. I had a vaginal u/s with my last pregnancy so I'm familiar with the process. My DR didn't mention anything about IUI so my husband and I will be BD'ing every night for a while.
Good luck finding a new church. We are in a similar situation (needing to find a church that suits our personalities!)
Sorry to hear about the rude lady. I agree with you. God is awesome and he made special dr's to deal with infertility. He works wonderful miracles. Don't let her get you down, some people "just don't know what we go through"
of her!! I can't believe it! The nerve of her!! You should contact the church and let them know how incredibly insensitive this woman was. You may want to ask this incredibly stupid person how she would handle a serious illness of her own or a loved one. Would she simply pray and avoid all medical assistance???? What church was it? Give me the phone number You really should call. They would most likely be floored by her ignorance.
OK--now that I have that off my chest. I think a vacation will be great for you. It will definitely make the week go quickly. Are you a photographer? I LOVE taking pictures!! It's a hobby for me but I would love to make a career of it.
It's funny you mentioned that lady, and how she'd deal with a medical illness. She told me that she had health problems and she "threw" her pills away and started "trusting God". So, I guess I am a complete ignorant jerk if I don't fallow in her footsteps!
(ha ha) My DH suggested we write a letter together to the Pastor and just brief him on what is going on. That church is a nondenominational church, and is seems really to be a good one. We have liked it so far, and don't want one person's rude remarks to taint our feelings on the church as a whole. We may still go back, but trust me, that was the last time I am bold and ask for prayer from a stranger! =)
I love taking photographs as well. I have been doing it now for a few years, and video too. I started filming weddings and it branched into still photography as well. DH keeps urging me to start my own business in addition to nursing. So this wedding this weekend is a "trial". If the bride likes the photos I may go ahead and take the leap from "hobbies" to "business". One of my all time favorite hobbies is scrapbooking, and I love filming as well. I did all the editing of my own wedding video a while back, and put all our still shots to music. =) It's fun.
It's gonna be a good break. We are traveling with my DH's family, all 8 of them! (ha ha) Grandmas and all.
So our trip should be interesting. DH will go onto Atlanta GA, so he'll be gone on Monday when I have my blood test. If it's positive I thought I'd meet him at the airport when I pick him up with a sign saying, "welcome home Dadday". (hee hee) If it's negative, I guess it will just say "welcome home".
My pastor is supportive all the way. There are others at my church who have had fertility treatments. The ones who criticize or give really bad advice usually have kids! They don't know anything about what we go through or why we want to go through it. If this is the attitude of this church it may not be a good church. The way I see it if God doen't want me to have children.. then I wont no matter what I try. I go to a conservative church (Baptist) and they are not like that. I havnt gone for a couple of weeks. Last time I went a pg woman sat down next to me. It was all I could do to keep my composure. I was sort of angry with God for that one though> I know that is not the attitude to have. I think she had it now I can go back. Not beeing so upset now may help with that.I may try this one little church closer to me where mostly elderly people go.
You really should call. They would most likely be floored by her ignorance.