Hi Girls,

This site has been very quiet lately. I hope you all are doing okay. I just wanted to vent and give an update about what is going on with me. I got AF today on CD29, that is early for me. My cycle was probably affected by starting clomid. I took my first month of clomid and wasn't as sucessful as the first time. Oh well, back to the drawing board, OPK kits, clomid, the anxiety of BD at the right time. Sometimes I just wonder why does it have to be so difficult. I can remember being in my late teens and being scared that I was pregnant. I am very down, cry alot, and I know it wrong, but I resent one of my best friends who is 8 months pregnant. We were due a week apart. I hear her complaining about not feeling well and being pregnant and I want to smack her. She is so lucky, if I ever get pregnant I will never complain, I will just pray that I have a healthy baby.

Love,
Nancy

I'm so sorry Nancy. I can completely understand how you are feeling. Just make sure you get all the crying and sadness out so you will be ready for the next time. This is a difficult thing and it's just better to let yourself be sad. You will be up again in no time. It used to drive me nuts when people would tell me not to be upset. What do they know?

I, too, remember being worried that I was pg when I was younger. It's strange the way things work out.

I don't blame you for being resentful about your friend. She is a very real reminder of your loss but I know that you will feel better in time.

Hang on Nancy. It will happen for you in time. I just wish my crystal ball was working so I could say exactly when

Take care.
Love,
Rhonda

Hi Nancy,

I do pop over here every other day or so, and think of you all often. Yea, the board does seem quiet these days, but don't worry you are not alone in your TTC efforts.

I am sorry your AF arrived. I am sure you had high hopes for your first cycle of Clomid, as you were so successful last time. It's okay to feel upset and cry, or do whatever helps you get through this. I swear if I had a dollar for every tear I have cried, I be well on my way to a million dollars! (then I could buy all the fertility meds I wanted Ha Ha Ha)

Infertility is life changing, it's very stressful. You have so much emotions running in your body, then to add ontop of that PMS and the stress of starting a new cycle, no wonder you feel down.

It's okay to be jelous of your friend who's pg. I have 3 friends right now who are pregnant, all of which started after me and got prego the first time. Then I was called today by one of them, and she just had her baby yesturday and wants me to visit in San Deigo!

Just take it one day at a time, and your day will happen. You are such a strong person, even if you don't feel that way all the time. You will get pregnant again. You are in my prayers, just keep taking it one day at a time dear. =)

God bless,
Donna