I just want to hug you. I can't imagine what you went through and I do think you did the right thing. You will have your miracle soon and it will all be perfect.
For me, I have thought about the possibility of having a special needs child and, frankly, it gives me a stomach ache. I just have to keep going back to the faith I have that it will all work out the way it should and I know that I will be happy no matter what. It is such an incredible feeling not to be afraid. I use my intuition (which I believe is from God) for everyting and it has not let me down. That was how I knew that IVF was not for me and to just let it all go. Who knows what will happen next?
Your a good, strong woman Nancy. I can't wait to celebrate your success!
Love,
Rhonda