Clomidclub: U/S bittersweet....(pg mentioned)

Ladies,

I went for my 6w2day ultrasound today. It was sooo bittersweet. Firt off RE saw that my uterus has a very large bleed. We don't know why, as I have been been staying off my feet these past few days. My last u/s showed the baby implanted very low, but other than that it was fine. Today, we saw a heartbeat, and the baby measured at 6w1d, so that was great! The pregnancy itself if doing great, except for that stupid bleed.

Re said that if bleed continues, I'll misscarry or it'll "stiffle" out the growth. She said the baby can't continue to grow in a "hostile" invironment. I have not started bleeding outside yet, (like when you wipe it's only brown), but she told me I probably will. I go back on Monday for a repeat ultrasound to see if baby grows and if bleeding the stopped.

I have been so sick from morning sickness, tired, and headache. I just feel like I am at the end of my rope. Things are really touch and go. I keep am trying to be strong, so is DH. It's like going through the whole infertility nightmare all over again.
Getting the "gloom doom" speach and all. I was even in the same room for my u/s today, as I was in when they told me about my FSH being high, and gave me the donor egg speech! I swear, on Monday I am going to ask for another room when I go for my next u/s. (ha ha)

I have been cramping bad all day, and I am sooo afraid.
I haven't spotted crying. But, I know it's in God's hands now. He's the creator of life, and He's in control. I am talking to the baby telling it to hang on, and praying like crazy. And I am also telling my uterus to stop bleeding and relax. So we'll see????

It's hard cause I thought if I lost the baby, it would be from the "pregnancy" not being strong, or not progressing. It's tough to know, that everything is just as it should be with the baby, it's my uterus not co-operating! It's so frustrating.

Thanks for letting me share my worries and I appreciate your prayers. You are all priceless. =)

Love Donna