Amy,

Good Luck!!! I hope that this is it. How are you holding up?

Love,
Nancy

Nancy,

Well -- AF came today. Here I thought I was so in control of all this...and now as I sit here I am absolutely bawling. DH and I just had a big fight about next steps, and I am really at the end of my rope.

I just don't know what to do next. My dr. was so disappointed. He told me that in the history of his practice, I'm one of the best responders on Clomid. My follicles have every month been big and my progesterone very high yet I can't conceive. It seems the egg just isn't being fertilized. Now we are deciding when to do IVF. DH thinks it's way too soon. I'm terrified to do it and not have it work. That's sort of been the old standby in my mind and if that doesn't work, then I don't know what I'll do.

I don't think I want to do the injections on its own because of the high incidence of high order multiples. IVF seems better because they control how many embryos they implant.

Anyway, I think we're going to do nothing artificial for the next few months and just go back to old fashioned trying. I'm thinking I'll give it 3 more months and then do IVF in July (if DH supports this).

I'm really a basket case right now. DH doesn't understand my need for this to happen now, since we are blessed with our 3 yr. old son. I know how blessed we are to have him, it's just that I want more children so desperately.

How are you doing? Did you have that tube test (I always forget the name).

Love,
Amy

Hi Amy,

I was so sad to see your post this morning. You and Dh will decide what the best thing for you both is. I have my HSG test today and I'm scared. My RE hurt me when he did my IUI, I can't even imagine what this is going to be like. I know how you feel. I wanted to be more aggressive and my RE talked me out of it for now. This whole TTC thing is emotionally draining. I'm not confident about this month at all. It is so strange, my temps have been at 97.7 for the last 3 days. We are all here for you if you want to vent.

Love,
Nancy

Nancy,

I'm feeling a little bit better today. DH and I have a plan. We'll do nothing for the next 3 months (except for trying on our own whenever we're in the same city). July will be IVF month. I think I'm going off clomid since it's been 4 months and so far it's not working to get me pregnant. I was told there is a much higher success rate within the first 4 months of clomid. Plus the clomid has been working beautifully and still I haven't conceived. I think IVF will be our answer, unless somehow it happens on its own within the next few months.

Having this plan makes me feel so much better. We decided for sure against the injections -- will wait to use them when we do IVF. In the meantime, I'm dieting (healthy dieting -- Weight Watchers) and I'm losing the weight I've gained in the past year dealing with all this stress! So that makes me feel really good and empowered.

Anyway, I'm still very sad but feeling better than last night.

Good luck with the procedure today. I had it done 4 months ago and it didn't hurt me at all. The IUI was worse for sure.

Love,
Amy

Hi Amy,

I had my HSG this afternoon and I agree with you the IUI was far worse. I had this done a year ago, so I knew what to expect. I got some good news and bad news. The good news is my tubes are open. The bad news is my RE found a polyp that needs to be removed or it could increase chances of miscarriage. Also, he thinks tha my uterus has a septum. This has to do with the lining and shape. All of this is so complicated. He said he will do hysteroscopy to look and fix these minor problems. My Dr. says that this doesn't have anything to do with me getting pregnant. I will have a sono when I have a positive surge and then DH and I will decide whether we will have an IUI this month. I think my RE said if the egg implants near the polyp it could miscarry.

Your plan sounds great. I have read many stories about woman getting pregnant while waiting for IVF. It is always good tohave a plan. I have been on clomid for 6 months and my RE says I should continue to take it as long as I'm ovulating with it. I don't like taking it for so long. Thanks for listening.

Love,
Nancy

Nancy,

I'm glad your HSG is over. I'm also sorry you have to deal with these problems. It's a good thing they did the procedure though so that you can deal with it (didn't you tell us that your doctor didn't think the HSG was necessary?) So if I understood you correctly, they told you that none of this has to do with fertility? Maybe once they deal with it you will become pregnant?!

My plan has slightly changed. Still doing IVF in July but I'm doing one more month of clomid except now I'm taking 100mg (I've only taken 50 so far). My RE says the success on 100mg is greater, whereas my OB had told me there was no need to put me on a higher dose because I responded so well to 50mg. What do you think? It's only for 1 month so I figured I'd let my RE dictate the plan. Meanwhile, even with all this clomid in my DH will be away from days 13-16 of my cycle. In the past 2 months, I ovulated on day 13. We may end up missing the chance which is really annoying.

I go for a sonogram on day 12 so I'll pray I have a big giant follicle that day and they can give me the injection to get it to rupture. That way we can do our thing on night 12 and the morning of day 13 before he goes away.

Anyway, I'm sorry I've babbled so much. I hope you're okay. I'm thinking about you!

Love,
Amy

Hi Amy,

My RE did say that I didn't need a HSG b/c the one I had last year was normal (he wasn't the one who did the HSG last year, so I guess he is going by the written report). It is a good thing that I pushed to have this test. My RE said that my problems don't cause infetility, I have read otherwise. I have read of circumstances where women have had the surgery to correct the problem (hysteroscopy) and end up getting pregnant right after. My Re said that the polyps and septum can cause miscarriages b/c of problems with implantation. I really don't know what to believe. Dh and I have discussed not having the IUI this month. I only have a limited amount covered by my insurance, so I figure that I willl continue with IUI once I correct this problem. I still have to go in for a sono when I get a positive on my OPK. RE wants to check out the polyp in relation to ovulation. All of this is so complicated. Dh and I have decided to continue to BD and try on our own this month, you never know.

I would trust your Re and take the 100mg of clomid. You never know, I have heard though that clomid helps you to ovulate and Dr.s will up the dosage if it isn't doing it's job. At this point I don't think it hurts to give it a try. I have often thought about just giving up all these treatments and let nature take it's course. I'm not that brave yet, so I will continue with TTC.

Love,
Nancy