Read this...all of you... This is going on all boards...
Posted Jun 10, 2000 2:08 PM
Ok... Guys...
I'm sure you've heard what's been happening, what's happened, and all that...
Well...either way, on what you think, what you've been told, or what you "know", I can tell you right now that it has nothing to do with you guys... That doesn't mean that you can't think what you want...that's fine, I don't care.. But don't involve yourselves in this...please...
All of my friends: Hey.. I love all of you. And I don't know where I'd be now, or what I'd be with out you. I've been strong because of you...and weak when you were gone, when we fought...and so on... You guys kept me alive when things were down, and I thought about such things as suicide... And I know that I can't change how you think of me...but I hope that you at least consider the things that you do know about me...and that I wouldn't do something extreme unless I had no alternative.. I don't know what I'll do if I lose you...not kill myself...not go back... but I don't know what I'd do...
People who I don't like/don't get along with: Hey...think what you want... That's your opinion..just make sure you keep it to yourself...because you're not part of this either... I don't really hate you guys..well...I hate a couple, but it passes... I'm asking you, too...all of you..to please just stay out of it... Let my troubles be just that... >>MINE<< not yours... it's my life...let me live it...
All: I'm happy...I like it here...I like where I'm at...and I'm sorry that I had to leave like I did.. I would have loved to have just talked and left in a better way, but it wouldn't have happened like that...
Mother: I'm not the glue that keeps the family together.. you'll move on without me... let me be...please...just let me live as myself... I don't hate you...but you're pushing me farther away with all of this... Please... I'm asking you this last time... Please...leave me be.. Because if you go much farther...you'll lose me forever... Seriously.. This isn't a game...and I'm not playing... Stop acting as you are... Accept it.. Act responsibly, act like the "adults" that you should be... And stop telling me to grow up.. I didn't start this.. I didn't bring this to the extreme as you have... And if you destroy my relationships between me and my friends... sighs Then you'll push me over the line... And I won't love you anymore...